Thoughts on cleaning house.

I didn’t realize what it would feel like to accomplish such a huge task as repainting all the rooms in my mom’s house. I think I didn’t take into consideration that what I was doing was essentially removing all remnants of dad from the house. The only thing left is the paneling in the kitchen, dining room and hall way. He loved his paneling; I don’t think I could stand to change that. Also I don’t think I took into consideration that once I was through, what would I do to occupy mom? So now I’m emotionally blocked with the obstacle of what to do now. Do I sling shot into my life and leave mom on the side lines for a while? I know she will be ok and I’ll still see her once or twice a week, and of course I’ll call her every day.